Is Guillermo in love with Nandor?
AN ENTRY IN GUILLERMO’S DIARY
Dear Diary,
I've always dreamt of the day when I'd finally transform into a creature of the night, to join Nandor and the others in the grand and eternal dance of the vampire. But now, as I'm caught in this prolonged limbo between human and vampire, I can't help but feel a deep uncertainty.
I paid Derek to turn me into a vampire, a desperate move fueled by years of unfulfilled promises from Nandor. It all went according to plan: the biting, the exchange of blood, but now I'm stuck in this frustrating state of half transformation. I can walk in daylight, I don't feel the usual insatiable thirst for blood... It's all so confusing. Could my Van Helsing heritage be causing this delay? Or perhaps it's the fact that it was Derek, not Nandor, who bit me. For now, I must keep my condition a secret, especially from Nandor. His honor would compel him to kill me and then himself if he found out.
On top of all this confusion and secrecy, there's another layer of complexity: my feelings for Nandor. Oh, how I've wrestled with these emotions. I've harbored this... affection for him for years, a product of our intimate bond as master and familiar. But despite these feelings, I've found happiness in my long-distance relationship with Freddie, a beacon of normalcy amidst my chaotic existence.
Nandor, meanwhile, has been preoccupied with his upcoming wedding to Marwa. He even used a Djinn to manipulate her into liking what he likes, a magic that eventually led Marwa to me. She found me after the ceremony and expressed an uncanny affection, mirroring the ways Nandor calls and treats me. This was an unexpected revelation, suggesting that deep down, Nandor might harbor romantic feelings for me as well. Could this be? Could my long-held dreams be reflected in him too?
But such revelations are double-edged swords, stirring up a whirlwind of emotions and possible repercussions. Marwa might turn against us if she finds out she was manipulated. And while a part of me revels in the idea of Nandor's affections, I can't deny that it puts my relationship with Freddie at risk. The mere prospect of Nandor's love pulls me back, tempting me to relinquish a partner who genuinely cares for me.
Despite this turmoil, I can't ignore a glimmer of hope: Nandor's unintentional confession could bring us closer. Perhaps, seeing Marwa's artificially induced affections will lead Nandor to free her and accept his true feelings. After all, Nandor has yearned for someone who truly understands him, and despite our tumultuous past, I might be that person for him.
So, dear Diary, I find myself standing at a precipice, caught between my love for Nandor, my duty as his familiar, my relationship with Freddie, and my partially transformed state. My dreams of becoming a vampire and being with Nandor seem to be unfolding in the most convoluted manner.
In this labyrinth of chaos and uncertainty, one question keeps surfacing: "Is Guillermo in love with Nandor?" The answer, I'm afraid, is a resounding "yes". But what this means for our futures, well, that's another entry for another day.
Yours in eternal ambiguity, Guillermo
